Hi everyone...so this is my new blog...after being hiatus for a while *it's already few years* so I'm back...it just feels like I wanna have blog again...I forgot how to use it already but I'll try *don't even know how to have followers*...
Sooo...errmm...actually I have a story to share...this evening, I'm going out for a lunch with one of my friend...I'll named her Miss F la... She's a geneticist *to be I hope*...we talked about stuff and stupid things, laughing and of course eating...*ok lame (Matlutfi, 2015)* when suddenly we talked about our future...*I mean studying*...she looks so stressed with it and maybe that's why she wanna meet me today... okay enough with english...hahaha..
Miss F asked me, how about my study since I'm already further my study...so I told her it's just fine cuma kadang2 kene marah dgn Prof sbb x dpt results...bende biase mcm tu la...but it stressed me out la since u don't get any results...sape yg nk bwat kje tp x nk ade result kan? my problems just basically about my labworks... so this is where she starts to tell me everything...
First of all, Miss F actually da dpt offer utk further her study dkt oversea but disebabkan ekonomi negara skrg yg entah apa2 *marah* so ssh utk dpt scholarship apa semua tu and dye x pegi la...and dye jgk got some problems with our uni system...dye apply for intake bulan 2 tp tbe2 ofis kol ckp that course yg dye mntak tu x amek intake for bulan 2...it's not her fault!!! so krenye mcm skrg nie dye x bwat apa2...just help his brother mcm tu la...
She told me like semua org dkt rumah dye x support dye lgsg even she expects that her family will support her in every decisions that she made but no...her younger brother always kutuk dye like..."tgk la siapa yg mereput dkt rumah skrg nie" when he just 15!!! the one who understand her is her older sister but she got her own family already so she can't be with my friend all the time...and even her mom also like salahkan dye all the time...she sat for SPA exam before and she didn't pass because she doesn't want that job...so her mom like blaming her for not doing well in the exam...we graduated from biology course...so do u think she wanna be a pegawai diplomatik? of course she doesn't want it...it's not even in her choice...she wanna be a lecturer because she always wanted to gain a new knowledge...they expect her to get a job straight away after graduated...like her older brother and sister...they're engineer...of course la akn trs keje...sbb time study pun amek engineering confirm klua akan jd engineer kn? but like us...kteorg biology...pure biology...no specific kje pun...so what do u expect from us? she's trying so hard to find the scholarship but she still don't get it...she's so stressed out because no one is supporting her...I don't even know her problem before because she just act normal...I thought she's doing well all this time...I just wanna hug her at that time because I can feel her tp time tu dkt kdai mkn and rmai org and I sat in front of her so agk ssh la klau nk hug kan...
She told me yg dye jealous I already further my study and jealous dgn org2 lain yg da tgh klas skrg...smpai dye slhkan diri sndri...like "kenapalah aku x ikut je mcm si A nie" and "aku rase aku nie memilih sgt kot"...smpai thp mcm tu...so she thought she just wanna further in research if she got no choice...I told her are u serious sbb I know dye mmg x suka bwat kje yg duduk dlm lab...like me, I mmg suka so when I smbg in research pun xde la stress sbb I x suka my work...aku jd risau bila dye ckp dye nk smbg in research...before this I told her yg klau x minat jgn smbg sbb terpaksa...takut nnti stop half way lg rugi...but she said this is the only choice she had...
After I heard about her problems I was like...selama ni aku fikir masalah aku je yg plg berat but no...her problems are bigger than me...at least my family still support me in everything I do but not her...because actually family yg lg memainkan peranan sebenarnya and when u lost their support it's like u don't have anyone else already...for me, my problem with my mom basically mcm pasal how the oldest daughter sepatutnye kne bwat nie bwat tu...x de involve about my study or my future...
For me, parents nie kne support their children sbb kdg2 we lost...kite x taw nk bwat ape...kite nk dyeorg support kite mcm btl x ape yg kite bwat nie...in her case like no one care for her except her sister...sbb kdg2 bila kite cerita masalah kite dkt parents, dyeorg x faham pun sbb masalah kita bukan bidang yg dyeorg belajar...like her family, she's the 1st want to further her study and the 1st yg amek bidang science...so if she tell her problem pun parents dye x kn faham...same goes with my parents...so there's not much they can help with it except for keep supporting u...
Every person have their own problems...and we don't even know what have they been through so don't just simply judge them like they always got lucky or get anything they want...maybe before they have it, they already fall for a few times...we don't know...Alhamdulillah...my parents always support me in everything I do...even I can't share my problems with them...hahaha...that's why org slalu ckp...manusia ni x reti bersyukur...ada je yg x ckup...so when this thing happened to me...I was like..."Allah...ade lg org yg teruk dr aku...x reti bersyukur btl..."
So try to live your life to the fullest...don't think u are unlucky or what not because everyone have their own problems but they choose to solve it and be successful...my mom once said "kalau hang fikir hang lg bgs dr org lain, ingat ada org lg bgs dr hang...kalau hang fikir hang teruk dr org lain, ade lg org lain yg lg teruk dr hang"...just mmg terasa btl bila my friend cerita mcm ni...mcm "ape yg aku fikir selama nie? hidup ko lg better dr org lain...knape ko rase ko unlucky?"
"BE GRATEFUL WITH EVERYTHING YOU HAVE"
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